school , again .
i cant wait for spring break already LOLLLLLL

so yesterday .. dawn texted me during 3rd and told me that he was wearing pink !
i was like SOOOOOOOOOO exciteddddd
but then when i got into lunch i only saw him wearing a black jacket :[
when i checked later i realized that he was wearing a pink polo(?) shirt underneathhhh
tanned guys would look like some disgusting mud covered in pink .

i was really tired yesterday
even though i had only 2 hw ..
slept at 12 cuz after i finished hw i started reading love stories ..
its like a habit that formed after the break .
so hard to find good ones nowww :[

so todayyyyy :D
me and amy got outta gym right when the bell rang
and i was like shit hes prolly in the caferteria already
but as i was walking to the cafeteria door
i saw him coming
and i was like AHHHH !
black jacket red hoodie and CHECKERED VANS SLIP ON <33
his hair looks a little messy but in a cute wayyyy :3
so i was like squishing in and stuffs
and like theres like two ppl between us
i think that he saw me and then he sorta stopped a little
so like we wouldnt get in at the same timee

and then .. when it was like almost 8
he got on
and then i didnt pay attention cuz he was on mobile yesterday too
and then i realized that HES NOT MOBILE
I WAS LIKE OMFGGGGGGGGGWHATJKLTJLKSDLKFSDKLJ
but yeah
after like an hour of struggling .. and ranting ..
i decided that i wont talk to him
even though i really wanted to
i wanted go like YOU STUPID HOE >;[ AM I REALLY THAT CREEPY ? I LOOK BETTER THAN YOU THOUGH LOLOLOL
he got off eventually ..
prolly went to sleep .. > 3< sleeping beautyr LOL

and then i went to his pf ..
hoping to see something
AND I DID =DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
AHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAH
I SAW THAT GET TO KNOW YOURSELF BETTER APP THING
AHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA
MORE LIKE GET TO KNOW ME BETTER MS STALKER !
okay imma be really creepy and bitchy right now .. BEWARE
i am putting my reactions in red .

so i had this dream last night ..
actually , today cuz i slept at 1 >_>
AND IT WAS SOOOOOOO .. CREEPY IN A CUTE WAY D;

most of you already know that me and tb take the same train and we walk the same way ..
so in my dream
we were taking the train ..
i got off first and was walking home
and then like this road was occupied by a bunch of .. tanned asians ..
and like whoever that wants to pass the road has to eat those chinese takeout stuffs
so i started eating o.o
and then he came .. and he started eating too
it kinda felt like me and him were getting kidnapped so it was pretty awkward ..
so i looked at him
and then he smiled at me O_______O
not like the polite smile
like the REALLY REALLY REALLY HAPPY SMILE
gaaaaaah .

on last friday .
after gym me and amy were stuck right in front of the nw cafeteria door
idk what was happeneing but it was either cuz of the stupid lady or the machine so that ppl couldnt swipe in
IT WAS SOOOOOOOOO FUCKING SQUISHY
ppl in the bakc doesnt know shit so they kept pushing and stuffs
and also other ppl are coming from the elevator >_>
he was like one person away from me ><
i would just stare at him for a few seconds ,
then turn away and look again after a while
>////////<
he looked so clueless and cuteeee with the beanie !
and he was wearing a red hoodie
never saw him in a red hoodie before i swear o-o
i wanted to pinch his cheeks so baaaaaaaaadly :[
and like , after he got it
i realized that one of his bookbag straps fell off
LMFAOLMFAOMLFMAO
it prolly fell off when he was waiting but then it was so squishy that he couldnt fix it
AHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH SO CUTE
sigh i am a crazy bitch .

i go for abcs <3
NOBODY GOES FOR WHITE, EVEN THO IM SORTA LEANING TOWARDS THEM NOW
FOBBY ABCS*
NO. ABCS><. I SHALL CHANGE MY TASTE
SHAME ON YOU D;
>< WHAT?
WHAT ABOUT YOUR RONNIE HUBBY
HES MY DREAM. 
I NEED REALITY.
my dream = in korea
my reality = somewhere in my neighborhood but thinks that i am creepy
WHAT A LIFE

put it on ur notes or something when you get a chance XD 
nahhhhhhhhhmy rants are more classic than that 
lmao classic
they're all dedicated to one guy -shiver- 
imagine a creepy stalker dedicating it all to you XD
hey ! if he was cute LIKE ME i wouldnt mind >_> OH AND PRETTY SMART
i am definitely smarter than tb >_> and prettier YOU KNOW ITTTTTT

MUST . FINISH . MATH . HW . TONIGHT .
D;

ive been watching drama for the past two days ..
and not really socializing :3
i havent paid much attention to fb x.x
and i didnt really talk to a lot of ppl on aim

it was cny/sad yesterday :D
i only got like 150 bucks cuz i dont have a lot of relatives here ;-;
so like on the day before cny
my uncle picked me up after i finished volunteering
and then we went to eat

i still remember when i was back in china
we would go to this really famous restaurant in gz every year
and its like twenty something ppl
i would get red envelopes from each one of my relatives
the food isnt that good
but its really happy and stuffs
the adults would talk about so many things
and then when i get bored ill just bring the little cousins outside and walk around with them
i miss it .
and all of a sudden i was thinking about america and china again LOL

i remembered that one of my former classmate had said that maybe americas for fitted for me cuz i am the type that likes to have freedom .
but thanks to my grandma ,
americas even less free than china for me .
i do hate the chinese govt for restricting and censoring so many things like fb and youtube ,
but i dont know if which one is worse , racism or less freedom .
coming to america broaden my view and changed the way i think 
but i cried a lot more .

maybe i shouldve told my grandma no when she asked me if i wanted to come .



i really am thinking a lot this break .
i am thinking about the majors again LOL
i even used tarot cards to see if i should pick ssr or ias
and then tarot card said that i wouldnt be able to keep up the work .
sigh .
but i really really really really wanna take cal bc next year ..
even tao said that i should take it
since i will still have spanish next year
bc cant fit into my schedule which is double period
if i want bc ill have to do one of these three
1 get into ias
2 drop my lunch period
3 get 1-10 which might not even happen due to budget and shit

i dont wanna give up my lunch period and i cant have 1-10 cuz of club and shit
basically ias is my only hope -_-
IDK WHAT TO DO NOW FLJDSFLJKFDSJKLFDSLKJDFSLKJLDJSFKLDSFK
apply for bc ? drop lunch ? apply for ias ?
T-T
maybe ill use tarot cards for "SHOULD I DROP MY LUNCH PERIOD FOR BC -_-" ..
SIGH .

even if that bitch screams ill still buy a new pair of nikes !

going back to school again FMLLLLLL .
well .
i was supposed to be in school at 7:30 to help deliver the flowers
but my alarm didnt ring ..
so i WOKE up at 7:20 :/
i wanted to get his prefect
but then I GOT THE PREFECT THATS LIKE 3 LETTERS AWAY FROM HIS T_T

grossharts class is SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO boring .
we spend like 40 minutes talking about scientific notation and engineering notation
and according to someone who has him later
he only spend like 25 minutes talking about those crap :[
and then we got gym now :/
since we have 8th floor gym before lunch
we have to walk down to 6th then back up to 7th

so on wednesday , me and amy were walking together
peter was somewhere in the front
i was like playing oh on my phonee
and then when i pushed the door into the stairs
tb came up from the staircase T__________T
and i was like OH MY FUCKING GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD
i tried to hide my face behind amy
and then when i was walking behind him
i was looking down at my phone the WHOLEEEEEEE TIMEEEE D;
god i felt so fucking embarassing .
he was like wearing that olive jacket .. beanie .. and the pair of shoes that i HATED .

and then i had leadership afterwards
and i volunteered (and dragged shan) to organize the flowers that werent sent out
when i saw this flower that said his name on it i was like OH . MY . GOD .
and then i looked at the message and it said something like stupid kid that i wont give money to
IT WASNT LIKE FROM HIS LOVERS OR WHATEVER LOLL
thank god .

on thursday , i left chem pretty late
and peter didnt wait for me :[
so i was little mad at him
during gym jolly ditched me and became partners with jessica
so i took amy away from peter
and he ended up with sharon ];
he was like bitching at me the whole timee that we were walking to lunch
and then after we sat down he was still like YOU WIFE STEALER
tb came in and i was walking in the opposite direction
it seemed like he was trying to look if there was something stuck on his jeans
but then to me it just seemed like he was trying to find excuses to look down -_-"
just like what i did on wednesday
the sad part is that
when i was thinking about my theory
i thought that it was suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuper cute T-T
he was wearing .. uh black jacket white shirt bright blue skinnies and the checker vans slip on :O
reminded me of last part of replays mv LOLOLOLOLOL ♥

anyway , so peter was bitchingbitching bitching bitching
about how he hates sharon she never does shit blah blah
WELL I WAS IN HER GROUP FOR HEALTH FOR THE WHOLE FUCKING SEMESTER
my health grade for 2nd mp was like 80 something cuz she didnt print out the stuffs on the due day .
thank god i got like 103 1st mp so that saved my ass .
so then i got really annoyed and i went like
OKAY FINE WHATEVER YOU CAN HAVE AMY BACK
and then he turned all happy and shit and went like I LOVE YOU
it made me felt like shit .
and yiman , being the usual her , wouldnt leave me alone
even though i was screaming at peter and everyone noticed that i was pissed off
so then i started screaming at her -_____-
peter apologized later so i was like okay .


AND NOW OMGOSH FRIDAY FRIDAY FRIDAY
so after gym .. i was hoping to see him ..
and then on the stairs
i kept looking at the back
but then when i was about to swipe
i realized that he was somewhere in the front -______-
i only got to see his back -_____-
anywayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy
me mabel yiman and nana were going to the bathroom together
and then nana went back to get her id
since i want to look at him i was waiting for nana
she didnt come back -_____-
but then the announcement was calling for him !
i was like OMGOSHHHHHHHHHH LUCKYYYY ;DDDDDDD
SO HE RANNNNN TO THE CENTERWEST TABLE
IT WAS THE FIRST TIME THAT I EVER SAW HIM RUNNING DDDD;
sooooo cuteeeeeeeeeeee !
he came back with a piece of paperrr ..
i wonder what it is :/
yiman forced me to pick up the flowers >_>
after lunch angel took my bag for me cuz i forgot about it ..
and then she gave me the bag and then held the flowers for me
and then i saw tb walking with my peripheral sight .
DAMNNNNNNN IT T.T
why didnt i hold the flowers myselffffff D:
maybe he wouldve seen it and get a little jealousss


when i got home .
i saw that hes now friends with raymond on fb
I WAS LIKE OMFGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
I WILL KILL YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU
T___________T
stupid raymond .
sdflfsdljksdfjklfdsklfsdkljfsdkljkflsd .
someone tagged him as the wrong person in this pic ..
FAILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL LOL
and he joined that apple ipad giveaway shit ..
COMEEEE ONNNN ARE YOU RETARDEEDDDD D;
well he is >_>
DAMNNNNNNN .
susan miller said februarys gonna be a faaaaaabulous month for romance .
well we will seeeeeeeee ~ -_-

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background music : 2am - i did wrong

- sleep early
- less procrastination
- do well on my sat 2s
- organize my room ;-;
- that monkey TT-TT

call me the fob or the pro stalker .

ppl that i love :
kim jonghyun ♥ , my mom, my moms mom, and my friends

things that i love :
shopping, money, cheesecake, k pop, chocolate chip cookies, & photoshopping

i am a hypocritical individual :
- i can be loud or shy .
- i think too much about the future but i dont give a shit about the present .
- i am very realistic yet i still want the ideals to happen .
- i laugh for the tiniest things and i cry a lot .
- i like and despise a loser that ill never get .






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