my legs are so fucking tired right now
but i am in the mood of writing ..

SO .
on saturday i got my dotdotdot .
and i got a crazy headache later >.<
we werent even like doing anything
i was so bored that i started reading sat books LOL
damn fucking kaplan IS insanely easyyyyy D;
the sentence completion was like .. 5th grade level -_-

later , i was texting .. idr who
but then i was like talking about it seems like my phones gonna break
cuz it was like mad loose already
and then i touched the top gently
and that shit fell off -_-
even though the two pieces were still connected >_>

i felt so damn horrible after i got home .
so i took tylenol
and started reading love stories .
LOLOLOL
didnt really do any work :x

and then on sunday .
i did a little bit of chem
and then i decided that ill do my model after i eat lunch
so i ate lunch .. and then felt mentally .. tired .
anyway , i ended up starting my model at like 9 ?
and i got so frustrated at like 11 ..
i felt like i would never be able to finish it
and "breaking my phone" even adds onto the stress
especially when my aunt didnt really give a fuck about it .
i really want a phone with full keyboard though ..
without a full keyboard texting is a pain in the fucking ass .

i finished it at like 2:30
and slept at 3 ..
but somehow i wasnt all dead and sleepy today LOL
OMOGOSHHH I GOT A 90 ON THE MODEL
I WAS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPPPPPPYYYYYY
T.T

93 on my ap world final :/
the grade is alright but then
there are like 5 questions that i was stuck between like 2 choices and then picked the wrong one -_-
DAMN ITTTT T.T
could have gotten 100+ T________T
got a b+ on the term paper ..
expected :3
butbutbut mr.stevens said that one of my source was good so hehe
when i send it to him ill get 1 more point on my report card MWAHAHAHA
i guess that kinda cancels out how i dropped another point in spanish =_=

the mc of the math final was EASYYYYYY ;D
well .. shahs test were never hard but then like
i make stupid mistakes but with mcs its easier to spot your mistakes :D
andandand i got 48/50 for short response for chem :DD
i just drew a flow of heat diagram instead of potential energy diagram .....

i LOLed at nanas random thoughts ..
and now everyone was like xinru prolly loves jonghyun more than the monkey
teeheeeheee kim jonghyunnnnnnn<33333
and no i am not gonna study for the chem final tmrw ..
its prolly easy as hell anyways >_>

okayokayokayokay .
so today i took 2 finals and one test .
I FORGOT TO DO TWO EAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASY QUESTIONS FOR MY CHEM EXAM
FMLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL T-T
i hope that ill still have like 90 ..
the english test was unbelievably easy .
cuz generally tuckman steals tests from honors class gives REALLLY detailed tests even though she never reviewed it with us -.-
and the one today was like MAD GENERAL ;D
MWAHAHA .
the spanish test was .. alright .
the listening was confusing as hell though .

SO I WALKED INTO THE CAFETERIA WITH PEEPEE
AND THEN GFDKLJDFSKLJSDFJKLSFDLJKSDFT
THAT BYOTCH IS WALKING IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION
i didnt wanna look straight cuz i know i wouldnt help but stare at him ..
and i was being shy enough ..
so i turned my head away
fuck . isnt that even more obvious D; ?
grrr ..
but like if i looked straight i wouldve blushed like ohdee .
even though i was blushing while looking away too x.x
when i got to the lunch line i was blushing and talking about him the whole time ......
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH T-T

so .
even though i should be studying for math right now ..
it feels like .. time has passed by so quicky D;
like all of a sudden , the fall term is going to end ..
is spring term gonna be like this ?
and then all of a sudden , everyone would be choosing majors
choosing different paths from each other ..
choosing the ppl to stick with for two years ...
and then before we know
it would be june .......
and he would graduate .....
and i prolly wont see him , ever , again .

thinking about the future kind of makes me a little sad inside .
cuz its so unpredictable .
but thats what makes life exciting right ...........
we rely on fortune telling and all that
so we can "know" about the future
but really , who does know about future ?
as i said in one of my notes ,
the future doesnt really scare me ,
since i always wish and hope that the future will be all bright and happy for me ,
but i am still worried that ,
it might not turn out to be the way i want ..

i was even thinking about stuffs like ,
should i send my children back to china or let them stay here ?
china is so crazy about exams ..
theres a lot more pressure and competition academically ..
but america is so cruel and realistic .
youre facing so many things that you shouldnt be facing at your age ,
like racism and such ..
sure youre learning a lot about the society ..
but you lose your innocence way faster ..

we were talking about families yesterday in health ,
and i got kinda sad
cuz in my mind , family really should be the ppl that love you and support you and always making you feel better ,
but apparently its not the case ..
i would want to give my kids as much love as i can give ..
but then i cant spoil them ..
.. damn this is hard .

to be honest i do regret coming to america .
but theres nothing that i can do now ..
other than taking everything in
and work my fucking ass off
so i can leave after two more years ........

wish me luck on my health and math test tmrw D: !

i feel really lazy right now so i prolly wont update my other blog tonight ?
even though it was like shinee and 2pms goodbye stages ..

SO .
my dad is back from chinaaaa !
MAH SILVER BAG IS BACK <3
along with like 5 sat books that i wanted ..
its around half of the price as it is in the us ..
TSK TSK TSK USA .

my chem sat 2 book is pretty heavy T-T
i flipped to a random page in the glossary ,
and then the first word i saw was kelvin scale
i was like =___________________=
and then i closed the book and didnt wanna open it again D;
ill prolly read it during in spring break .. LOLLLLLL

so this week ive been sleeping really early cuz i dont have those motherfucking sketches to do anymore !
the earliest was 10:40 and latest was 11:30 ..
but then we have to make a fucking model for the house in one and a half week -_-
ITS OKAY
ONLY ONE MORE WEEK LEFT
THEN GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOODBYE MS . ENG I WONT MISS YOU D;

OMGOMGOMGOMGOGMOOGMMOGOMGOGMG
-SQUEALS-
TB GOT TAGGED IN SOME MORE PICS
HES WEARING YELLOW
WHICH IS WHAT HES WEARING TODAY
-squeals again-
-struggles-
-clicks save-
-struggles some more-
-moves onto the next pic-
-sees many pig uteruses-
-sees pig embryos ..-
-disgusted-
-sees his back-
-stuggles again-
he kinda looks like a pig ..
WHY DO I ALWAYS ASSOCIATE HIM WITH ANIMALS D;
omfg jeffrey chen is so fucking buff .
OMFGGGGGG MONKEY LOOKS LIKE SUCH A LITTLE KID T^T
i cry cuz i feel so moe T^T
OHGODFUCKINGFDSKLJDSFJKL
WHY DO YOU GOTTA MAKE YOUR MOUTH THAT FUCKING BIG
YOU PIGGY EATER >;O
he looks so fucking .. creepy T-T
look at jeff chen looking all disgusted LOL

okay i am done stalking ..
god bio med is so grosssssssss D:
but i still have stalker stories to tell ..
so on the 9th someone left him a comment and then a buncha ppl started commenting on ittt

J**** Z***
sup what happened to youy guys everything okay?
Q******* L*
LOLOLOL why would you give it to them
K***** L**
Nah they never found mine... U think we can find anything about these punks?
D**** K***
you alright meng?
K***** L**
Sore jaw but nothing serious...
M*** Z****
yo did you get a court order?
K***** L**
Yea

and then i figured that he prolly got mugged and was forced to do a bj ..
i was kinda sad :[
on the 10th though .
I FOUND OUT HIS NUMBER MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHN
CUZ SOMEONE NEEDED HIS NUMBER AND HE JUST COMMENTED IT ON THE WALLPOST
MWAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAAHHA
nana is right ..
why would he do that when he knows that he has a stalker xD
cuz hes stupid -_-" or he forgot LMFAO loserrr

and then on monday .. i walked up with raymond
and then HE WAS STANDING RIGHT IN FRONT OF THE DAMN STAIRS ON THE 5TH FLOOR
raymond started giggling -_____-
AAAAAAAAAWKWARD .

his status was like :( at 4 something
and then i got mad worried ..
IS IT CUZ HE SAW ME ?
IS IT CUZ HES IN LOVE WITH SOME BLONDE SLUT WITH BIG BOOBS THAT WOULDNT LOVE HIM BACK ?
IS IT CUZ SOME ASIAN SENIOR GIRL THAT LOOKS 10 TIMES OLDER THAN HIM ?
etc .
so mad ppl were like whats wrong ?
and then he didnt reply ..
so this guy commented again ..

sigh, you haven't responded in 4 hours, i think you're just being an attention whore =\

DAWN WAS LIKE OMFG SO TRUE x_x;;;
and then he replied o.o

K***** L**
Oh werd lol nothings wrong... False alarm...
J**** A*****
see? i knew it.... attention whore >.>
K***** L**
Not really, I'm just a retard bcuz I got the face wrong its supposed to b (: lol I'm such a retard...
J**** A*****
smh
such.... a..... fail....
K***** L**
My bad my bad lol... Smiled bcuz some random guy paid me $10 to help him hold his baby while he went to the bathroom... Lmao
J**** A*****
x.x
wow, you must look like a punk if some random person trusts you with their baby x.x
K***** L**
Well that guy trusted the right person... I was so scared that he was gonna ditch his baby :/

i want to go up to that guy and be like BRO YOU TELL THE TRUTH YO ! :D

uhh what else .
today and yesterday ..
when we were leaving after lunch
hes like behind us again !
even though pretty far ..
but i was like squealing when i saw him going that way ..
and then angel and peter dragged me awayyyyy T_T
PETER EVEN COCKBLOCKED MY VISIONNNNNN
I COULDNT SEEEE SHIT WHEN HE WAS HEADING TOWARDS THE CENTER STAIRS D;

today for the whole day ,
whenever i am near the train station
memories about him would pop up in my head
and replay replay replay noona neomu yeppeo ..
it was so fucking vivid ..
that shit annoyed meeee so much D:
but i couldnt stop it ............

okay enough about that bitch .
FINALS GAH FINALS
the spanish writing part was easy
cuz i knew the questions already LOL
need to study mucho ..
even though i doubt i will :x
really need 90s on ALLL of my finals ..
especially math
but i doubt it cuz mr.taos making half of the test T_T
FMLFMLFMLFMLFML
i really want straight a's on my transcriptttttt D:

i finally decided to give up customizing more ..
too lazy .
CLICKIE AND FOLLOW SANKYU <3
okayyy .

my first post is about music bank
only watched jojo , love letter to you , change , and jiggy
too lazy to watch because of you
and i just hate bo peep .

KEY IN MY FIRST POST AND MY HEADER !
-everyone runs to zee bloggie-
=.=
WHAT ?!
YOU ONLY CARE ABOUT KEY MOMMY ?!
T^T
fine .
jonghyun can be allllll mine<3

i am hungry .
OMG HE WAS LIKE ON AIM
A WHILE AGO
AND I WAS LIKE
FREAKING OUT ..
CUZ HE HASNT BEEN ON
FOR LIKE FOREVERRRR
ughhhhhh fucking bitchhhh .

so i only have like 2 hws today aside from my model .. :D
i am happyyyy .

well , as some of you already know ..
i am gonna make a new blog and its gonna be like k pop/anime/manga oriented ..
so i can release all these bubbly energy .. OR rant .
anime and manga prolly not so much cuz i have to edit the pics and stuffs and i am LAZY ;D
but k pop .. definitely .
if you can find my profile thingy right ..
its prolly there , since i already created it .
but i am doing the codes currently
so its private :D
the headers most likely gonna be a jongkey pic ..
unless i get inspiration to make another one .
if you have suggestions about what to put on the sidebars
please tell me cuz idk what to put there LOL

so today is really a bad day .
i got to school and then i realized that i lost my key to the lock of my locker
so after 1st pd
i went to my backup locker
i still remembered the numbers ..
but then idr which number was the 1st/2nd/3rd one .. >_>
i just like dragged my fucking jacket and parts of the model to chem
celine and jolly were like O.O WHAT HAPPENED

my binder and my math notebook was in there ..
but i had all of my hw except english and my ap world notebook
THANK GOD .
so i just did my english hw during lunch ,
but then shah decided to be a bitch
and asked for the hw THAT WAS DUE TWO DAYS AGO WHICH WAS IN MY BINDER
T.T

okay stalker time .
hes wearing a beanie today
and according to raymond , when he took it off
it was like normal hair .
well ...... you cant really wear a beanie if your hairs like a freaking pineapple .
LOL
"pointed" him out to mabel yesterday againnn ..
cuz he was wearing that SUPER BRIGHT GREEN HOODIE under his jacket .
so easy to identified ..

i shall end this blog with my sexy interpretation of the late qing dynasty
just to make it less stalkerish :3
.. i guess yiman shouldnt have listened to me cuz i creeped him out ehhh D;

Decentralizing allows local officials THAT ACTUALLY CARE ABOUT MY LOVELY FOBLAND to progress and improve on their shit , even though those fucking retards in beijing are like "NOOOO WE ARE  GONNA BE TRADITIONAL AND LET THE BAK GWAIS TAKE OUR PRECIOUS STUFFS !"

1905 was important because it was the last year that the CHINESE SAT was administered and even those dumbfucks in beijing realized that OH CRAP THIS REALLY ISNT WORKING WE ARE GONNA GET RAPED BY THOSE BAKGWAIS T.T

today was a better than yesterday i guess .
i had less hw :D
but i procrastinated a bit cuz i was messing around with my blog and -smirks-
i hope you noticed that i changed my bgm ..
doesnt it sound mad wintery ?
its such a sad song though ..
jungah and inyoung are leaving D;
wtfs the point of jewelry s then ?! >_>

anyway .
this morning my eyes were burning cuz i was THAT sleepy ..
the other 2 groups gave in their models already
they look so pretty :/

vionna : he was on the lunch line before the bell rang
me : o.o YOU REMEMBER HOW HE LOOKS LIKE ?!
vionna : he has that weird hair .. -motions-
me : -facepalm-

i finished drawing all the parts of my model
and ill prolly tell my grandpa to cut it out ? LOL
cuz its SO fucking hard to cut it .. -_-
whaaaaaatever . screw soph tech

oh my , i just realized that i didnt check his pf today :OOOOO
HOW LOVELY OF ME .
-checks-
fuck . my stalker genes T-T
HE RANDOMLY APPLIED TO TULANE ?
can he even get in >_>
I THOUGHT HE WANTED TO GO TO CORNELL AND ITS LIKE IN NYS
but tulanes like in new orleans ..
to be honest i have no fucking clue where new orleans is on the map ..
near mexico ? LOL
he should go to cali :3
cuz ill never go THAT far for college D;

i read from some other horocope
that imma start getting romances in march  
damn .
why damn?
you want it to com earlierr? ;D
YOU SHALL BE HAPPY WHILE YOU ARE IN THE CALM STAGE OF
nvm    
being a stalker isnt calm..

yeah recently there really isnt much to get me going bubbly about him .
so yeah ..
i just realized that i am exactly four years and a month younger than jonghyun !
GAHHH
-DIES FROM CRAZY BLOOD LOSS- 

finals schedule T-T:
20th - chem english spanish
21st - health & math MUST GET 90+ ON THE MATH FINAL .. EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I WONT D;
22nd - soph tech & ap world
 

I JUST WANT THESE 3 WEEKS TO GO DIE BY AS FAST AS THEY CAN
and shit . i really need to finish my fucking model and start on the elevations D;

i finally started my model .. Dx
and its absolutely horrible .
the blade was pretty sharp and it was still like realllyyyyyy hard to cut .
i felt really desperate again cuz this other group already finished theirs and it looks so fucking pretty
CLICK HERE FOR THE INSANELY AWESOME MODEL D;
anyway .
uncle gave me glass cutter and ill keep working on it tmrw i guess ..
but yeah i was like really pissed cuz I COULD HAVE SLEPT AT MOTHERFUCKING ELEVEN !
.. its all my fault , i know .
should have started during the winter break -.-

my mommy is not happy with the amount of sleep i am getting :/
and .. i was like yawning in every single class ..
ESPECIALLY ENGLISH AND MATH >_>
uh , during lunch i saw his back from like mad far away
and he had that olive jacket on that disappeared for like months ..
and his hair .. is like SKY HIGH ..
he looks like a pineapple D:

my dads coming back from china in 10 .. actually 9 days now since its past 12 -_-
I MISS MY SILVER BAG D;
it was so much more convinient to take out stuffs ><
yeah he took it back to china to fix the zippers cuz its wayyyy cheaper there LMFAO
my mom also got me the sat prep books that i wanted ..
its like .. half the price as it is in b&ns ..
ill still need to go to b&n for the ones that are not published in china .. :/
I GOT A 97 ON MY CHEM TEST HAHAHA .
got all mcs right and forgot to write units for the short answers -_-"""""

and at the end ,
GO TO ARCH 
IF YOU WANT TO BE A CRAZY PERFECTIONIST

GO TO ARCH
IF YOU WANT TO BE SOMEONE WITH NO LIFE
GO TO ARCH
SPRING TERM COME FASTER !!!!!!!

this is my blog .
so i am not expecting ppl to mess with it .
hateful comments are not appreciated .
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thank you very much .

saranghae jonghyun oppa♥
background music : 2am - i did wrong

- sleep early
- less procrastination
- do well on my sat 2s
- organize my room ;-;
- that monkey TT-TT

call me the fob or the pro stalker .

ppl that i love :
kim jonghyun ♥ , my mom, my moms mom, and my friends

things that i love :
shopping, money, cheesecake, k pop, chocolate chip cookies, & photoshopping

i am a hypocritical individual :
- i can be loud or shy .
- i think too much about the future but i dont give a shit about the present .
- i am very realistic yet i still want the ideals to happen .
- i laugh for the tiniest things and i cry a lot .
- i like and despise a loser that ill never get .






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