time for confession .
okayokayokayokay .
so today i took 2 finals and one test .
I FORGOT TO DO TWO EAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAASY QUESTIONS FOR MY CHEM EXAM
FMLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL T-T
i hope that ill still have like 90 ..
the english test was unbelievably easy .
cuz generally tuckman
steals tests from honors class gives REALLLY detailed tests even though she never reviewed it with us -.-
and the one today was like MAD GENERAL ;D
MWAHAHA .
the spanish test was .. alright .
the listening was confusing as hell though .
SO I WALKED INTO THE CAFETERIA WITH PEEPEE
AND THEN GFDKLJDFSKLJSDFJKLSFDLJKSDFT
THAT BYOTCH IS WALKING IN THE OPPOSITE DIRECTION
i didnt wanna look straight cuz i know i wouldnt help but stare at him ..
and i was being shy enough ..
so i turned my head away
fuck . isnt that even more obvious D; ?
grrr ..
but like if i looked straight i wouldve blushed like ohdee .
even though i was blushing while looking away too x.x
when i got to the lunch line i was blushing and talking about him the whole time ......
GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH T-T
so .
even though i should be studying for math right now ..
it feels like .. time has passed by so quicky D;
like all of a sudden , the fall term is going to end ..
is spring term gonna be like this ?
and then all of a sudden , everyone would be choosing majors
choosing different paths from each other ..
choosing the ppl to stick with for two years ...
and then before we know
it would be june .......
and he would graduate .....
and i prolly wont see him , ever , again .
thinking about the future kind of makes me a little sad inside .
cuz its so unpredictable .
but thats what makes life exciting right ...........
we rely on fortune telling and all that
so we can "know" about the future
but really , who does know about future ?
as i said in one of my notes ,
the future doesnt really scare me ,
since i always wish and hope that the future will be all bright and happy for me ,
but i am still worried that ,
it might not turn out to be the way i want ..
i was even thinking about stuffs like ,
should i send my children back to china or let them stay here ?
china is so crazy about exams ..
theres a lot more pressure and competition academically ..
but america is so cruel and realistic .
youre facing so many things that you shouldnt be facing at your age ,
like racism and such ..
sure youre learning a lot about the society ..
but you lose your innocence way faster ..
we were talking about families yesterday in health ,
and i got kinda sad
cuz in my mind , family really should be the ppl that love you and support you and always making you feel better ,
but apparently its not the case ..
i would want to give my kids as much love as i can give ..
but then i cant spoil them ..
.. damn this is hard .
to be honest i do regret coming to america .
but theres nothing that i can do now ..
other than taking everything in
and work my fucking ass off
so i can leave after two more years ........
wish me luck on my health and math test tmrw D: !
you might regret coming to amercia, but that's what happened and you should just make the best out of it.
i so agree with you about losing your innocence real fast. KIDS THESE DAYS. T_T
youre facing so many things that you shouldnt be facing at your age ,
like racism and such ..
sure youre learning a lot about the society ..
but you lose your innocence way faster .."
^ i agree, sometimes i wished i lived in hong kong because it might just be different...
well .. hk has like drug problems among teens too :x
but at least hk dont have dangerous ppl everywhere on the streets :[
you're not gonna go to college in china, are you? D:
chinese ppl are more traditional .. you know ? :DDD
and no i dont think so .. :D
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