thinking .. too much .
ive been watching drama for the past two days ..
and not really socializing :3
i havent paid much attention to fb x.x
and i didnt really talk to a lot of ppl on aim
it was cny/sad yesterday :D
i only got like 150 bucks cuz i dont have a lot of relatives here ;-;
so like on the day before cny
my uncle picked me up after i finished volunteering
and then we went to eat
i still remember when i was back in china
we would go to this really famous restaurant in gz every year
and its like twenty something ppl
i would get red envelopes from each one of my relatives
the food isnt that good
but its really happy and stuffs
the adults would talk about so many things
and then when i get bored ill just bring the little cousins outside and walk around with them
i miss it .
and all of a sudden i was thinking about america and china again LOL
i remembered that one of my former classmate had said that maybe americas for fitted for me cuz i am the type that likes to have freedom .
but thanks to my grandma ,
americas even less free than china for me .
i do hate the chinese govt for restricting and censoring so many things like fb and youtube ,
but i dont know if which one is worse , racism or less freedom .
coming to america broaden my view and changed the way i think
but i cried a lot more .
maybe i shouldve told my grandma no when she asked me if i wanted to come .
i really am thinking a lot this break .
i am thinking about the majors again LOL
i even used tarot cards to see if i should pick ssr or ias
and then tarot card said that i wouldnt be able to keep up the work .
sigh .
but i really really really really wanna take cal bc next year ..
even tao said that i should take it
since i will still have spanish next year
bc cant fit into my schedule which is double period
if i want bc ill have to do one of these three
1 get into ias
2 drop my lunch period
3 get 1-10 which might not even happen due to budget and shit
i dont wanna give up my lunch period and i cant have 1-10 cuz of club and shit
basically ias is my only hope -_-
IDK WHAT TO DO NOW FLJDSFLJKFDSJKLFDSLKJDFSLKJLDJSFKLDSFK
apply for bc ? drop lunch ? apply for ias ?
T-T
maybe ill use tarot cards for "SHOULD I DROP MY LUNCH PERIOD FOR BC -_-" ..
SIGH .
even if that bitch screams ill still buy a new pair of nikes !
but in my opinion, you adapted really well. your grades are really good! (even if you might not think so.)
i think you're pretty hard working, so no matter what major you choose, you'll be able to live AND get good grades. :D
but then .. like , i am still procrastinating so much T-T
and pfffft , if i choose ias
ill have to take aps from like english spanish math/sci history D:
i already have world .. and math/sci isnt a problem
BUT ILL DIE FROM ENGLISH AND SPANISH T.T
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