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I'm speechless, suffocating and lonely .
The world without you has chewed out my heart ,
Stomped on my dignity , torn apart my heart ,
So why did you leave me behind?
till her blood was frozen slowly , and her eyes were darkened wholly
Dec 24, 2009 4:26 PM | 4 Comments

winter break finally started .
those 3 days felt like a fucking monthhh .
but i have so much homework to do over the motherfucking break .

homework over the break : term paper , floor plan , elevation , model , 5-page narrative poem, 5-page term paper , mini health project+ regular hw , math packet , 5 hours of rosetta stone . I WANT TO KILL MYSELF ALREADY .

THINKING about it makes me dizzy already .
on top of that i still have to tutor tori -_-
i am not gonna have enough time
ill hang out anyways x.x

having a break means that i wont see him ,
but it also means that hes gonna do more on fb ...... x_x
last night i was really tired and bored
so when the question "who do you like" popped up in the notes
i just put his name up there .
didnt say "him" , didnt say "tb" , nothing like that .
just his name .
i am getting more and more desperate
and sick of hiding .

susan miller said that christmas is gonna be really romantic
but the super accurate chinese horoscope said that this week i wont find anyone .
ill trust the chinese horoscope LOL
susan miller can dfsjklsfdlkkdlsf in a corner .

yesterday i had to give out christmas cards for fundraising during prefecttt
i was kinda sad when peggy gave the 3rd floor west side cards to some girl T_T
i got 3rd floor east side ><
so anyway and then i went to lunch
and was behind amy
florence came out from the elevator
and then she went like LOOK THAT WAY
i was like what o.O
and then she went like BRIGHT COLOR BRIGHT COLOR
i still couldnt see any bright color
and then she was like look over theree its tb
i was like ohhhhhhhhhh damn even neon-er green ?!
and then yeah he was right next to amy ..
and then he swiped in before amy -.- stupid cutter
i tried to look at his id and failed LOL
even though i already know how it looks like :X
if you wanna know how fucking neon that shit is .. refer to the pic below .

so this girl put up a pic taken yesterday with him in the middle
and then this guy commented " HEY I SEE A FAGGOT IN THE MIDDLE!"
and then tb wrote "yo. i. see. a. fag. right. here." on his wall
LOLOLOLOL
i am not sure if where his arms are
but that melissa girl prolly has her arm around his waist >.<   >.<   >.< 

what else happened this week ..
FLORENCE BABY TOOK A PIC OF HIM WEARING GYM UNIFORM MWAHAHAHAH<3
but it was mad blurryyyyy :[
and and and .
this .
(9:52:47 PM): last time i saw him was like last week
(9:52:55 PM): he was hanging with a white group
(9:53:04 PM): and mad blonde sluts over there
(9:53:11 PM): i heard him flirting
(9:53:20 PM): sounded like he was trying to pick up a few
er . doesnt sound quite possible ..

ill shut upp about him and talkk about christmas noww .
most of the stuffs i got are cards LOL
raymond wrote "forget about kelvin ! x-x he's stupid. just look @ it this way
0 C (zero trouble) = 273 K (lots of trouble)"
i literally LOLed .
got a pompom from areesha
a vintage-y necklace from diana
food from connie LOL
lotion and body mist from jolly

i wanna go shopppingggg D:

Blogger Nana said...
i would trust the chinese horoscope too. :D

and u were never hiding him to begin with. everyone knew u liked him. ._.
Blogger Luminous Fish said...
THATS TRUE .

but not a lot of ppl know his name ..
cuz usually i refer to him as "tb" not his name ..
most of them just know that hes a paleass asian that doesnt look like a senior .
LOL
Blogger Connie said...
I've been meaning to ask... who is this Susan Miller? She sounds stupid.
Blogger Luminous Fish said...
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL .

shes like this astrology person ..
her stuffs are usually accurate ..
EXCEPT FOR LOVE RELATED STUFFS LOLL

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