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I'm speechless, suffocating and lonely .
The world without you has chewed out my heart ,
Stomped on my dignity , torn apart my heart ,
So why did you leave me behind?
rollercoaster rides make me vomit .
Dec 16, 2009 6:34 PM | 2 Comments

i failed my english vocab quiz LOL
well . i was too busy trying to get a spanish book so i can do my hw at lunch ..
and then i forgot about studying x.x

um .
so far in this week , i never saw him in the train station ..
and hes still wearing the blue beanie every day .
yesterday he was on the sw line
i was like trying to cut into it by talking to sinyu but oh well .
yeah basically every day i just like look at him from really far away .
and going AWWW HES SO CUTEEEEEE
i thought it would be like that ,
and i guess i was wrong .

so after 8th i was walking up with raymond ..
also cuz i saw AREESHAS AHEM walking on the 2nd floor and then going up .. :D
so i was following areeshas ahem .
and then we got to the 4th floor and he left
i was still staring at his back LOL
and NOWWW
the person that ill never imagine to appear fucking appeared .
guess who it is ?
AHAHAHAHHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHA .
=______________________________________________=
yeah , its the Tight Bitch .
if you dunno who i meant by tight bitch then look at the letters that i capitalized ..
IF YOU STILL DONT FUCKING KNOW
he is the senior fucking loser that i like -_-

well i thought he has 1-7 ..
so i never expected to see him there ....
i was like really fucking shocked
to the point where i like .. stared at him for a few seconds ..
and he was just like looking at somewhere else
i have no clue where he was looking at though
back staircase =_= ?

so i just pretended that nothing happened
and kept walking
but then raymond started laughing really really loud
and then i like ran up -.-
tears were coming out ..
got to the 6th saw yiman
walked down with her
my voice was like sorta shaking
and my sentences were mad broken .

this reminded me of that saturday ..
a few days after i confessed to him
i went to b&n and then on the way home
i saw him and i was about to cry on the streets -_-"
at first i was in too much of a shock ..
and THEN its like BITCH WHY ARE YOU HERE I DONT WANT TO SEE YOU
and then the painful memories just rush back and hit me .. hard .
havent been like that for a few months already ......

iono .
he looks better from far away LOLLLLL
he didnt grow . at all .
sad sad sad .
so much shit to do tonight .
fml .

J****** L**
were you wearing green yesterday? LOL i think i saw you yesterday on the d train.

K***** L**
i think i was wearing green yesterday and yes i was on the d...


                             names are censored cuz i am so nice :]
i wanna comment on it and say stuffs like
"yes you were ~ and you were wearing that beanie that youve been wearing for a few days (: i remember everythingg"
so then he would be ohdee creeped out :DDDDDDDDDDD
THATS RIGHT BYOTCH REVENGE FOR YOUUUUU
but since i am so much of a pussy ,
i am not gonna do it LOL

so i sorta need your opinion :d
yesterday florence said that he looked at her for a while after gym ...
she was right in front of the wall so it cant be like someone else ..
the possible choices are ..

1. he was staring at the wall - most likely .. hes just that TYPE of person -_-
2. "THAT GIRLS HAWWWWWT =D " - um . the fuuuuuuuck .
3. "OMFG THAT STALKER GIRLS FRIEND FML T.T " - uh . but he has BAD MEMORY D;
4. he was using his pheripheral sight to look at some other things/ppl o.O ?

yeah :]
YOU BETTER LOVE ME ALYSSA .

Blogger Nana said...
why would u start tearing after u see him?
MAN UP TO THE FUNNY LOOKING MONKEY! >:O

you wanna know what i think?
I THINK IT'S 1,2,3, AND 4. :D

naw. i bet it's 1.
and if it's 2, i dont think it matters much.
florence has her own stalkeee, doesnt she?
Blogger Luminous Fish said...
"and then the painful memories just rush back and hit me .. hard ."
read more carefully baby !

LOL ,
yeah i think its 1 too -_-
well if its 2 ..
then ill be like "YO FLORENCE GO TELL HIM THAT HES A FUCKING CREEP" XP

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