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I'm speechless, suffocating and lonely .
The world without you has chewed out my heart ,
Stomped on my dignity , torn apart my heart ,
So why did you leave me behind?
eventually i wont be able to stand this .
Dec 3, 2009 10:08 PM | 3 Comments

i have a fucking canker sore since like .. tuesday
it had been hurting so fucking much that my teeth started to hurt as well
yeah .
i have to like fucking bite my own teeth so that it doesnt hurt as much .

i feel so despaired cuz of trig .
i finished math , and will do spanish tmrw ..
i should do my d4 
but i just dont have the energy .....

i am like putting so many things to do on weekend ..
even though ill only have like 1 day to actually do it .
sigh :[

grandma wants me to tutor tori
and if i raise her grades by at least 10 points then ill get 100 bucks
FUNNY .
10 FUCKING POINTS .
SINCE EVERYTHINGS CUMULATIVE
I DOUBT THAT IT WILL EVEN GO UP 5 POINTS =_=
i tried to help her before
but she doesnt even get simple stuffs .
no offense , but even ppl like robert would understand
cuz i was explaining it like 1/10 of a step at a time
like how i teach those elementary school kids at angel center
but she STILL doesnt get it .
i feel mad hopeless
but nobody saw it .
all they saw was just that she is failing chem and on the verge of failing geometry as well
and i am the one getting good grades and "chillin"
so then everyone in the family thinks that i dont give a shit about her and i dont wanna help her at all
=______=
YEAH ?
if i really dont give a shit she wouldnt be fucking passing technical drawing right now !

grandmas a fucking dumb bitch talking shit when she doesnt even know anything .
all of them think that its a obligation for me to help her . 
DO YOU EVER SEE HER COMING TO MY ROOM AND TUTOR ME WITH ENGLISH ?
i cant even asian pass math myself now
and you expect me to take care of someone elses grades ?

i dont get why they always compare us
we are nothing alike , and my grandma just always had to find something to criticize me about
yeah yeah yeah she will remember to save me food and i wont .
THATS CUZ YOU PPL WILL DO THAT SHIT FOR HER
AND YOU PPL NEVER DO SUCH THINGS FOR ME
ohhhh i am soooooooo selfish .
i wonder who influenced me to be a selfish bitch !
maybe this part was like reasonable (not)
BUT WHAT THE FUCK IS WITH THE HANDWRITING PART ?
i still remember one day shes pretend to be all nice and shit
and she went like "toris handwriting in chinese is better than you"
DUDE ?
toris only been learning chinese in school for like one and something years
and she doesnt even know shit yet
and you think that her handwriting is better than mine when hers is all fucked up and crooked ?
youre SOOOOO educated =.=

okay ill shut up about this now .
or else ill start crying and imma get puffy eyes tmrw .
haha i realize that my blog is not full of him anymore .. LOL
but i would rather be talking about stalking him happily than getting bitched at by grandma =.=
ugh .

Anonymous Anonymous said...
that's the typical asian elders 4 u -.-
Blogger Nana said...
ur related to tori?

she's in my chinese class :O

i say u should just forget about her and work for ur own grades.
so what if ur grandma bitches. worry about urself first.

i hope ur "canker sore" (no clue what that is,) gets better. ><
Blogger Luminous Fish said...
HEHEHEHEHE .
apparently my aunts gonna gimme 100 BUCKS PER MP IF TORI GETS 75 IN MATH
AHHHH I WANT MONEYY<3333333

go wiki it .. LOL
its like those white round broken tissue thingy in your mouth

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