i didnt know what to put for the title
so i went to wiki and searched love LOL
and then i went to unrequited love
and saw "anna , thy charms" by robert burns
i like how it sounds .
talking about wiki
i cant believe that theres actually a page for obsessive love D:
Moore, Forward and Buck believe that rejection is the trigger of obsessive love - also known as love addiction or relationship addiction. They state four conditions to help identify it, namely, a painful and all-consuming preoccupation with a real or wished-for lover, an insatiable longing either to possess or be possessed by the target of their obsession, rejection by or physical and/or emotional unavailability of their target, and being driven to behave in self-defeating ways by this rejection or unavailability.
Characteristics indicative of obsessive love are:
- Obsessive lovers believe that only the person they fixate on can make them feel happy and fulfilled.
- Persons close to the love-obsessed can also be greatly affected. Witnessing a friend or family member suffer from the disorder can be distressing.
- The person obsessed cannot accept the other person to be happy when they are suffering.
i need some regression therapy LOLOL
he should thank god that i am not those crazy bitches that will commit suicide or homicide :P
anyway ,
i decided get over him
but then this morningg i was sitting in the g train studying for the chem test
and then he walked by
i only saw the shoes and the legs and i could tell it was him ........
god what kind of proass stalker am i ?!
my heart was beating SOOOO fucking fast
and i just wanted to run awayy
fight or flight response right theree D:
well when we were about to get off the train
i wanted to go first but then i didnt wanna be that close to him
so i just let him go in front of me
and then i walked ULTRA FAST AND LEFT HIM BEHIND :D
i still have
some self control after all
and then lunch as i was walking to the table
i saw him coming in like behind gurpreet
and then gurpreet went like "asian ladyy"
so i turned around , and went like "youre just jealous of my asianessss"
and he passed , right next to me .
i said that to gurpreet cuz i kinda wanted him to walk pass me ;-;
i suckkk ><
stupid raymondd once lied to me that he was related to tb
so this time when he told me that he works at osa and saw tb
i was like NO YOURE LYING YOU CANT BE WORKING THERE
grrrrrr .
i dont want him to scare the fuck outta tb !
i bet he wouldnt wanna hear anything about me anyways .
BIG IMPROVEMENT .
i didnt walk around the neighborhood todayy trying to see if i can see him anywhere ..
no school tmrw so yessssss i dont see him .
another thing that i am happy about is that
even though i barely studied for the 3 tests that i had today
i still did okayy ..
we will see what happens on wednesday D:
ps . i cant believe that school crap only took me like 3 lines while stuffs about him took a whole page -_-"
and i didnt tell a lot of ppl about it ,
its impossible for him to find this out .
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